The stakes

There's to much at stake
For me to die anyway
So I live on
Breath in and
Go on with this song
Speaking in literal rhythms
Metaphorically I chime
That I find blood flow
In ever word realm I explore
Because the speech I say
Is spoke in another way?
Like Latin backward in a mirror
Misunderstood like an outcast youth
Distruot truth I suffer
Because my thoughts are illegal
Conforming to another system
Jumping control of the mainstream wisdom
Beaming insights on the spiritual level
I'm not even present while preaching this poem
I am air walking up to heaven
And being slapped down to gesmthan
Pits of the hell brethren
Climbed back up to earth
No sprit rebirth
Just a sign post to the way to find a holy host
I am not worthy
Just trying to further his glory
I will not see him on judgment day
My way has been paved
And my cell block bars laid
Satan's waiting for me
What can I see
A world of hate and disgrace
No one trying to follow a saving grace
It's saddening so many are joining the hell community
Expecting split level condos for their Mercedes
Welcome to hell
Here is your cell
No there's no bail
Now go directly to hell
There was only one name to save
But the name I can tell
They ignored and the fell
So maybe god will rescue me
For now lets wait and see
Because this world is hell bent to hell's command
I want the lord, I don't understand
Why does that set me aside
Make me unable to enjoy the ride
Make me want to die
So I can be with him
I hate this race
I hate my face
I want my lord
I want MY father
My home
A voice welcoming me
Loving me
Greetings good and faithful servant spoke
To know that I became spirit broke for something
That my life was spent for the one who created it
That heaven is letting me in
That Satan's grin is dead
And the saints rejoice
As I rejoin my brother